Lipstick and lullabies

I am wallowing in wonderful :) I've had a great couple of days and this morning was no exception. I fall more and more in love with the little things these days. This past Sunday was our first time back to church in a couple of months. It was wonderful to share G with our church family. We are so blessed to have so many people that love and care for us. I look forward to bringing G up in our church. My heart eagerly awaits the day she accepts Christ as her Savior.

Yesterday was filled with errands. Even so, it was great to shower and actually take the time to fix my hair and do my makeup. It’s amazing how a little lip gloss can make a lady feel more like herself. We picked up another pack and play for G. She’ll need one when she starts going to the sitter in August and we found a great deal on a really nice one on Craigslist. We then went to lunch and enjoyed each other’s company while G watched everything going on around her. It was definitely one of our better outings thus far. She’s changing so much and it is wonderful to have her along…granted I know a date night will need to happen in the near future. We then did our monthly grocery shopping trip.


This morning was also a wonderful time. The house was quiet and G was laying contently in her crib. I picked her up and changed her. Rocking her is one of my favorite past times and the way she smiles and snuggles melts my heart every time. It never gets old. I love to watch her drift to sleep as I sing her lullabies. Our set list includes “Jesus Loves Me”, “Jesus Loves the Little Children” and “A Mother Like Mine” (by The Band Perry). She’s heard these since she was in the womb…it’s just such a treat seeing her enjoy them now that she’s here.

My devotion this morning focused on scripture from 2 Kings. It was focusing on prayer and how we sometimes don’t pray because we are afraid of disappointment. The scripture tells of Elisha and how a woman, who longed for a child, was afraid to pray and ask for one because she did not want to continue being disappointed. My heart instantly connected. I remember so many days when I knew I should keep praying for God to bless our home with children, but the endless negative pregnancy tests really took their toll. I was doubly touched when I read verses 16 and 17. Elisha told her she would have a son the following year and the verses go on to say that “at the same time the following year, she had a son…” We became pregnant and gave birth to our daughter the Spring of this year…one year from the time of year we had hoped to have a baby. So while our plan and hopes centered around the Spring of 2012, God knew better and blessed us in the Spring of 2013. I’m so in love with how God works, even if I don’t always understand Him.

This week also marks the beginning of Operation Baby Weight. While I had lost a good bit of weight while I was nursing, as my milk supply started to decrease, the weight began to increase. I was diagnosed with Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome in December of 2011. I was only able to nurse for two months. My supply recently exhausted itself and I can no longer nurse. Several people, not intentionally, have made me feel less of a mom at times, as if I had done something wrong and am not doing the best by my daughter because I can no longer nurse. This was not my choice. According to my doctor, the PCOS is the likely culprit of my limited supply. I’m over feeling “less than” but do wish I could have made it to my goal of year. With that being said, I’ve got some pounds to shed…not to just “look” better or “feel” better but to be healthier for my daughter. I want to have many long healthy years with her and our future children.

Yesterday was a start. We purged the house of things that are not in our best interest and went shopping for things that will be more conducive to our health plan goal. I’m so glad to have the love and support of friends and family as I try to accomplish what I have set out to do...and right now that is to make this sweet little baby stop fighting the sleepy time fairy and take a nap :)